To all my lovely colleagues n frenz out there who sacrifice their time n energy endlessly, unselfishly .. juz to mould our future leaders............. wishing u.. 

Over the years i have seen how good individuals come n go in this profession... why is that so? well the demand and challenges of being a teacher have increased tremendously.. shooting right up to the sky... not many can survive in this line.. there are too many areas that can affect one s morale as well as crush one s passion.. i almost did... i mean my passion was almost killed by the shooting arrows made up of students, parents, work load, higher management and blah blah blah... Alhamdullilah..... i see all these as challenges and negative vibes that i need to overcome b4 acting on impulse.

I love teaching.. its my childhood ambition.. n my main objective is to impart as much knowledge as i can to the young ones.. other than that is only secondary... important to note that the teaching career has taken a 360 degree turn... teaching is no longer our main GOAL,,, its EDUCATING.... academically as well as holistically.. we MUST produce a complete child... not only smart and aloquent but also a child who possess all the necessary values in life.........

I enjoy being with my kids... LoVE them sooooo much eventhough there may be times when i juz feel like breaking down but it is always the children who will lift me up on my feet to move on... and persevere............! And i m glad that i m a teacher... cos there s nothing that can fulfill my life than being a teacher....... 

Yesterday we had a teachers' day celebration. I saw how my 2 good frenz, rafidah n sabrina, slogged to ensure everything went on well... hats off to the 2 of u... it was fun... my darling galz performed yday.. i was so proud of them.. received good comments from teachers n students,,,,,, congratz galz... n thanks for that song u guyz sang on stage.. haha.. didnt expect it...

the best present i received this year will definitely be the one from 4T... haiz.. i almost cry when i read all the msgs from the whole class...they made me read in front of them... there was even a poem done by one of my smart students.. auwwwwwwwww so sweetz... this is the batch that i taught from sec 1 rite up to sec 4... i ve seen how they grow.. from an innocent being to mature individuals with their own characters.. they started with having only 12 students in sec 1s... in sec 2, 2 other students who stayed back joined them... in sec 3.. one of them left... Thomas.. the indonesian student left due to unforeseen circumstances... so i had only 13... now the no of students in the register is still 13.. but unfortunately... i only get to see 11 of them most of the time... one of them was caught and is now at boys home... the other smart one.. decided to run his own life.. family disputes was the cause.. i felt sad... this is one of the challenging classes i had.. nonetheless i m gonna really miss them.. mon is their MT papers.. i wish that all of them will pass with flying colours.... i will pray for your success.... Amiin...

after the concert yesterday, all teachers celebrated by having a party organized by their Form Class... i had fun with mine.. the kids sang for us and made us feel good abt being a teacher... hehehe.. all those wishes n hugs n presents really made my day... LOVE U GUYZ...school ends at 12 pm yday.. of yes.. n how can i ever 4get my X students who came back to c us... thank you so much...

Celebration didnt end there.. after that, some teachers went for a game of bowling at safra tampines... we were divided into teams of 3... rafidah...ayu n me.. in one team... sab joined her gang ( julie n sara) in another team.. the first game was good... think my team scored the highest thks to the fabolous rafidah.. she is the top scorer for the first game with 149.. yahoo...! but in the 2nd game.. we didnt do as well hehheee... prob too tired...

After that we rushed down to Hotel Royale for high tea at carousel... Food and ambience --> THUMBS UP!! but unfortunately i was still full from the food i ate at the class parties... there were abt 2 other schools having high tea there too.. so imagine.. the place was packed with teachers...

i should not have left my car in school.. arghh.. how i wish that i didnt drive so that i cld join the rest of the colleagues shopping... hmm... nevermind.. on the way to the hotel i already bought something from far east hahaha... sempatz... so i left the place at abt 6 pm with colleagues whose gg back to school in a school bus... hehehe.. i wonder how many more teachers day celebration that i m going to enjoy... hmmm.....

Marilah kita bermuhasabah atau menilaidan menghitung kembali tentang amalan harian kita. Kadang-kadang kita akan dapati amalan kita adalah terbalik atau bertentangan dari apa yang patut dilakukan dan dituntut oleh Islam.
Mungkin kita tidak sedar atau telah dilalaikan atau terikut-ikut dengan
budaya hidup orang lain. Perhatikan apa yang dipaparkan dibawah sebagai contoh amalan yang terbalik:-

1. Amalan kenduri aruah beberapa malam
yang dilakukan oleh keluarga simati
selepas sesuatu kematian (malam pertama,
kedua, ketiga, ketujuh dan seterusnya)
adalah terbalik dari apa yang dianjurkan
oleh Rasulullah di mana Rasulullah telah
menganjurkan jiran tetangga memasak
makanan untuk keluarga simati untuk
meringankan kesusahan dan kesedihan
mereka. Keluarga tersebut telah ditimpa
kesedihan, terpaksa pula menyedia
makanan dan belanja untuk mereka yang
datang membaca tahlil. Tidakkah mereka
yang hadir makan kenduri tersebut
khuatir kalau-kalau mereka termakan
harta anak yatim yang ditinggalkan oleh
simati atau harta peninggalan simati
yang belum dibahagikan kepada yang
berhak menurut Islam?

2. Kalau hadir ke kenduri walimatul urus
(kenduri kahwin) orang kerap salam
berisi (hadiah wang yang diberi semasa
bersalam). Kalau tak ada duit nak
dikepit dalam tangan, maka segan ia nak
pergi makan kenduri. Tetapi kalau ia
menziarah orang mati, tidak segan pula
salam tak berisi. Sepatutnya kalau
menziarah keluarga si matilah kita patut
memberi sedekah. Kalau ke kenduri
kahwin, tak bagi pun tak apa kerana tuan
rumah panggil untuk diberi makan bukan
untuk ia menambah pendapatan.

3. Ketika menghadiri majlis pemimpin
negara kita berpakaian cantik, kemas dan
segak tetapi bila mengadap Allah baik di
rumah maupun di masjid, pakaian lebih
kurang saja bahkan ada yang tak berbaju.
Tidakkah ini suatu perbuatan yang terbalik.

4. Kalau menjadi tetamu di rumah orang
dan di beri jamuan, kita rasa segan nak
makan sampai habis apa yang dihidangkan
kerana rasa segan dan malu, sedangkan
yang dituntut dibanyakkan makan dan
dihabiskan apa yang dihidang supaya tuan
rumah rasa gembira dan tidak membazir.

5. Kalau bersolat sunat di masjid amat
rajin, tapi kalau di rumah, sangat
malas. Sedangkan sebaik-baiknya solat
sunat banyak dilakukan di rumah seperti
yang dianjurkan oleh Rasulullah untuk
mengelakkan rasa riak.

6. Bulan puasa adalah bulan mendidik
nafsu termasuk nafsu makan yang
berlebihan tetapi kebanyakan orang
mengaku bahawa dalam carta perbelanjaan
setiap rumah orang Islam akan kita
dapati perbelanjaan di bulan puasa
adalah yang tertinggi dalam setahun.
Sedangkan sepatutnya perbelanjaan di
bulan puasa yang terendah. Bukankah
terbalik amalan kita?

7. Kalau nak mengerjakan haji,
kebanyakan orang akan membuat kenduri
sebelum bertolak ke Mekah dan apabila
balik dari Mekah tak buat kenduri pun.
Anjuran berkenduri dalam Islam antaranya
ialah kerana selamat dari bermusafir,
maka dibuat kenduri, bukan kerana nak
bermusafir, maka dibuat kenduri.
Bukankah amalan ini terbalik? Atau kita
mempunyai tujuan lain.

8. Semua ibubapa amat bimbang
kalau-kalau anak mereka gagal dalam
periksa. Maka dihantarlah ke kelas
tuisyen walau pun banyak belanjanya.
Tapi kalau anak tak boleh baca Quran
atau solat, tak bimbang pula bahkan tak
mahu hantar tuisyen baca Quran atau
kelas khas mempelajari Islam. Kalau guru
tuisyen sanggup dibayar sebulan $20.00
satu pelajaran 8 kali hadir tapi kepada
Tok Guru Quran nak bayar $15.00 sebulan
20 kali hadir belajar pun menggeletar
tangan. Bukankah terbalik amalan kita?
Kita sepatutnya lebih berbimbang jika
anak tidak dapat baca Al Quran atau
bersolat dari tidak lulus periksa.

9. Kalau bekerja mengejar rezeki Allah
tak kira siang malam, pagi petang, mesti
pergi kerja. Hujan atau ribut tetap
diharungi kerana hendak mematuhi
peraturan kerja. Tapi ke rumah Allah
(masjid) tak hujan, tak panas, tak ribut
pun tetap tak datang ke masjid. Sungguh
tak malu manusia begini, rezeki Allah
diminta tapi nak ke rumahNya segan dan
malas.

10. Seorang isteri kalau nak keluar
rumah samada dengan suami atau tidak,
bukan main lagi berhias. Tetapi kalau
duduk di rumah, masyaAllah. Sedangkan
yang dituntut seorang isteri itu berhias
untuk suaminya, bukan berhias untuk
orang lain. Perbuatan amalan yang
terbalik ini membuatkan rumah tangga
kurang bahagia.

Cukup dengan contoh-contoh di atas.
Marilah kita berlapang dada menerima
hakikat sebenarnya. Marilah kita beralih
kepada kebenaraan agar hidup kita
menurut landasan dan ajaran Islam yang
sebenar bukan yang digubah mengikut
selera kita. Allah yang mencipta kita
maka biarlah Allah yang menentukan
peraturan hidup kita.

It has been one wonderful month with him.. I think this is the best period of my life... i was so lucky to have found him... n i ll never look back again... this whole month he taught me abt LOVE...abt Care abt bein appreciated.... I m sooo in love with him... I hope n pray that this relationship will last 4eva... cos i dont think i can find anyone who possessed such qualities... he is the man u want to bring home to mother... he is the man u want to share ur life with... he is really the man u want to go back to after a loooong tiring day at work... sigh... God, thank you... for everythg...

n sweetheart... u r the light of my life.... I LOVE YOU!!!

hi frenz...

by hook or by crook... today i promise to make time for u my dear blog..ya..ya.. I noe i ve not been fair to you.. i m sorry... its juz that i ve been busy with work n my new life... hmm.. im sorry for leaving u out... been updating my multiply that i hardly have time to share my stories with you...

let me tell u what has been occupying my life... besides the never ending work.. hmm.. lets not drag this topic k.. for once lets juz STAY TOTALLY OUT of work... i ve had enuf!! hmm.. lets see... for the past three weeks i went thru beautiful moments in my life... : ) my colleagues saw the diffrence in mua.. hehe..

"You are sooo smittened! R u in love???"  , "Y r u always sooo positive??" ,  "Y do u smile n smile??" "Wat r u so happy about???" , "Did u juz get a bonus?"..... HAHAHA... y am i not surprised to receive such comments... one of them even said this,,,"I wish i can have even half of your joy....be as positive as u n smile like u do these days...."

ME?? Positive?? Nah... i do complain abt work and life, rite?? hmm... well anyway the reason is simply because.... YES... I M IN LOVE...!!!! hahaha... with the most wonderful man on earth... well to me, he is....... let me intro him to you...

Well, we met in my working place... (hmm... see how can i complain abt my workplace..?? cos that was where i found himm...) met as colleagues... get to noe each other as frenz and now we are together... the feelings develop very fast because it was soooo easy to fall for him... unlike my other past relationships...even though physically im with them but the feelings dont develop until a later stage... normally first few weeks for me is juz a trial n error period.. hehehe.. if we can click... we ll stay on together if not, sorry... that was how most of my exes...felt that i mistreated them and im too aloof as their girlfriend.. they said normally first few months girls tend to be at their best.. but i didnt show them that i loved them enough... so different when i was their fren... very approacable n friendly... well maybe they were the sensitive ones... hahaha.. to me, im being myself.. same person.. but it was how they looked at things... Usually i dont give my 100% trust n love to any guyz easily.. i could remember one of the relationships i had.. that 100% love didnt develop until 8 months later... by then it was too late.. its not that i dont have that love.. i do.. but i didnt give them my FULLEST REDDEST 100% heart... there will be a small degree that i kept to myself... but when that love develops n im ready to give that 100%... i will never look back.... i will definitely want my bf to be the luckiest man on earth.. n they will be treated better than a king... However, when this happens, the guyz will tend to put on their egoistic cap... arghh... it seemed that their love n passion is valid for the first few month after purchase.. ops.. hehehee after bein together... anything more than that few months,,, u start gettin all the negative vibes and orientation...sigh...but of cos.. not ALL guyz are the same.. there were a few that i can still remember how they tolerated and worked their way to win my heart...fully... auwwwwwwwwwww so sweetz.. but Allah is Great... He has His plans.. we can only plan.. the rest is up to HIM...love u, GOD.... n thank YOU, ALLAH...jazakallah.. for your gift... i really really really appreciate it.. pls give me all the strength n will to take good care of it for as long as i can... if possible FOREVA... pls dont take the gift away from me....

And the gift comes in a form of a human being.. none other than my beloved SweeTHearT... with him... it was very very fast and easy.. even b4 we were together.. it was so easy to drooooolllllll for him... it was HIS CHARM!!!... sigh... gosh i was such a lucky person... hehee.. i mean.. seriously with his gentle nature... amiable smile....exotic eyes... kissable lips... seductive stares....his sensuous touches... hmm... haiz... but after all it was his personality n sincerity that really moved my heart...that s all to really make me go gugugaga... over him.. hahaa.... well... seriously today is only the 27th day im officially with him.. n yet it seems like we ve known each other for a loooooooooong time.... i gave him my heart so willingly... which surprise me... hmmm... 

"dont noe how u do wat u do... im so in LOVE wz u.. it juz keeps gettin better.... wanna spend the rest of my life.. wz u by my side... eva n eva,,,, every little thgs that u do.. baby im amazed by u...."

TRULY MADLY DEEPLY IN LOVE WZ HIM!!! So galfrens n boyfrenz... n avid readers of my blog... im pledging my love to him... n u guyz are my witnesses....hehehe... hope he ll cont to trust me...thanks deary for trustin me, loving me, caring for me,,, sacrificing ur hours wz me.. n most imptly accepting me in ur life.......... really appreciate it.... LOVE U SOOO MUCH!!!

Gee... it has been a lloooooooooooooooooonnnng time.. hmmm dec 2006.. was my last entry.. phewww,,, anyway... if u r back to check on me... this is wat has been going on in my life.. Wow.. so many changes do not noe where to start..

I broke up with my JB boyfren loong time ago,, i think early 2007... den got myself involve in a complicated realtionship... b4 long it was draining me.. squuuuezzzzing me out like water from the sponge... hahaaha... to him.. tks a million.. will never 4get u in any way...

now, im officially attached to someone sooooooooooooooooo sweeeeeeettttttzzzzzzzzzz n loving...cant imagine life if i had said NO to him... I really love him lots n lots,,, hehehe..

to those who juz check out my blog.. well juz remember that this is my old blog that u r reading.. stories were backdated.. and information were only certified true on the date of publish,,, hehehe,,, well.. so anything abt bf or love... pls ignore k.. cos those were the past... nevertheless.. it s the past that makes today better.. n tomoorow, something to look out for...okie dokie... juz wanna say WELCOME!!! N i MIZZZZZ YA my darling blog.... muacksszzz....

 

anyway, i ve been writing in another hideout. hehee.. so come join me there... hmm.. but dont expect that blog to be as lifely as this.. well the mood is simply LOw n serious n dark.. but hopefully...it will change......

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www.notrevie07.multiply.com  <-- my Life Wz Him...

not many pp knew i actually adore Emily... Emily who?? Emily the Strange,, a fictional counterculture character.. she is a gothic chic... hehehe... sometimes i do have a dark worldview like her.. well that only occurs when i m alone..hehehe (masa tgh feeling alrite la tu...)

Love her looks.. with that cute bangs of her... all black (my fav colour too!!).. some said her appearance and demeanour could be likened to those of Wednesday Addams,,,from Addams family...well maybe.. but personally i found her coldness n darkness unique.. n thats y she stands out in the crowd... she is herself!!

"get lost" her fav phrase... apparently, mine too...! hehehe only 1 MAJOR diff.. she loves cats n she has the company of 4 cats... namely mystery, sabbath,miles and neechee.. i HATE... no that is too strong a word... I DISLIKE them...! hehehe me and animals will never be synonym!!

but y am i introducing her only now? well.. i heard they are coming up with a live action n animated film based on her...! so watch out for her... !  

 

wah i m sooo exhausted!! My half a day was GONE clearing up my workspace in the office... i ve thrown most of my stuffs.. now i can see the table top... hehehe so imagine wat it was like b4... despite all the complains i m proud to present... the new Didi's work area... my 2nd home!!! hehehe k now me have to rush back to pack for tonite s trip.. i m leaving for KL tonite.. via Senandung Malam.. huhuuu... will be back on sunday,.. ops b4 that need to change currency first,,, okie dokie... c ya again...

 

KL here i come..

Finally, after a really loooooong break, i m back... well guilty as i am.. this time no excuses... been busy wz so many things... work especially.. now the school hol is back.. this means MORE ADMIN WORK!!! 2006 review, reports, evaluation, blah blah blah... budget, next yr s work plan, activities, events blah blah blah... n the list never stop... i ve been goin back to skul almost everyday!! n the work never ends... so toda i ve decided to laze at home.. doing nothing... but eat sleep n watch tv... so far so good...

it feels so good to be home typing and reading blogs.. hehehe.. i relly miz writing... anyway.. there s too many things that happened i cant possibly relate everything here... well yday was my best buddy bday... HAPPY BDAY DEARY!!! 

went to 2 weddings yday.. one of my NUS mate n the other my X student!!! hmmm... now.. im beginning to feel old alreadi... hehehe... well when u teach teenagers u have to be prepare... hehehe... it was a simple yet memorable one.. get to meet my first batch of students... miz them so much.. they were my darlings.. n i get along ver well wz most of them... 

hei...hmmm... suddenly im lost for words... LOL!! Didi? lost for words?? that is so not me... oh man... have i been so out of touch that i cant seem to noe how to carry on... isyh... i shall not let that happen.. k come on hink of something... hmm... k my plans this week...

well what s new.. 6-8 dec.. will be in school to discuss abt the sec 3 modular pckage for next year.. 8-10 dec.. will be in KL wz kruz, su n siti... 12 dec...YEAH!!! BONUS!!! huhuu... this year our dear n darling govt is generous gving us 2.2 for DEC!!! LONG LIVE the govt.. Alhamdullilah... syukur...   i hve a longggg list of things ready to be executed once the money is in.. first on the list is my CAR!!! so many things to do... change this n that... add this n that.. blah blah blh...

ops.. five plus already.. movie time.. bought a movie from cable... Devil's Bride or what eva... so adios... will cont soon... asta lavista babe...

holiday in lieu of Deepavali... but i m in school!!! not that i m so hardworking that i even appear here even when every1 was sleeping at home... here s the story...

last nite i accompanied 27 students and 3 other teachers on a nite tour... my first Nite tour.. i was overly excited abt it...next year i have to organise one so this will be a good experience... we set off at 7 pm from school... first we went to Mount Faber... i ve never been up there... well at least that part... it was educational for me too... i tot it s gonna be a boring draggy trip but no its not!! Thanks to the witty and humorous tour guide MR KC.. who always have something to wake us up.. his very fast with his tots... i LOIKKKKKKKKEEEE!!! hehehe... i enjoyed everything that he said... very intelligent and quick... hehehe...

k next we set off to Sentosa for the Musical Fountain... my goodness.. was i mesmerized by the colourful display... man!! So many things have change... with technology something simple can become extrordinary... at 10 pm KC took us to Singapore River for the boat ride... we took the ride from Victoria Threatre to the Merlion station... wow,,,! What an eye-opener!! of cos we took lots of pictures... esp the kids... den we had dinner at Lau Pa SAt... since it was still too early, we negotiate with the tour guide to bring us somewhere first before the trip to the vegetable market... of course, with me n my head around,,, we uttered, "MC!!!" huh?? where s that?? Mustafa Centre... surprisingly not many students n even teachers have been there... now when we arrived... we were given only 45 mins to walk around... 45 ONLY?? i shouted... that is barely enough even juz to browse the CD section... ok... we were suppose to meet at the same location by 1:15 am... by 1: 35 am ... 4 people still missing.. guess who?? hhahahah the teachers...!!! we were busy shopping and looking at things it was NOT enough for us.. hehheee well thank God KC extended the time.. hehehe,.. then again... it will NEVER be enough... hehehe once everyone was ready we proceed to Pasir Panjang Vegetable Wholesale MArket... the students walked one big round and came back with... NOTHING!!! hmmm.... market is not their thingy... but our 2 teachers bought some vegetables for themselves,,,, Very CHEEEEEAAAAPPP.... after that we went to Jurong Fish Market... again... less than half an hour the students were eager to board the bus... sigh...

anyway we were still to early so i suggested going to the jurong tower near Jurong Bird Park.. the coco scent greeted us with open arms... chewah,,, we went up to see the view of jurong island from the tower... what a sight... sadly, all these beautiful sceneries at nite can never be captured by the camera... sigh... well it was only 4 plus.. so we decided to have an early breakfast... the Prata Stall near NUS... unfortunately.. it was closed!! 24 hr Prata shop close??? hmmm... oooo its the hari raya season.. hmmm... well we den decided to juz stop over at the airport...

dat s when the drama started....

my head n i left the students at McDonalds Changi Airport T2 with the other 2 teachers. We wanted to do our Isyak prayers as well as Subuh(hopefully) we went to the viewing gallery bcos there is a quiet corner that we can utilise... So we went to the toilet at the departure Hall -- CLEANING IN PROGRESS... ok now... so we went up to the viewing mall...we found a toilet behind the thai restaurant... quiet and clean.. yeah... so i used the 3rd cubicle- the ONLY cubicle that has a sprinkler. in the toilet i was joking joyfully with my head... after using the toilet, i made way for my head... as i went out of the cubicle i noticed that the cubicle on the right was locked... curious, i asked my head if anyone came in.. because i cant recall any doors that were locked... so i give the door a slight push.,. yes it was locked... ok fine... i went to the basin to wash my face... then i bent down to roll my trousers. thats when i turned my head towards the cubicle n saw 2 hands on the FLOOR!!! WHAT WAS THAT!!! MAN!!! was i afraid... i squad down again.. this time,... no hands.. n no legs... SHUCKSSSS!!!! i panicked...! dont tell me.. it s a GHOST,,,!! shucks... i shouted for my head to come out quickly!!! she barked, " WAIT LA!!!" i keep signalling to her to come out quickly... she then opened the door... the moment she came out, another chinese lady went in the SAME cubicle... i told her what i saw.. so out of curiousity, she bent down to see... again she saw the 2 hands on the floor this time, the head was visible... MAN!!! then a weird tot came to my head.. oh dear,,, i dont want to be an actress in the internet... DAMN!!! i have to do something... so we waited quietly as my head took her wudhu. Then, out of the blue.. a man came out of the cubicle.. he took a napkin wiped his right side of the face n left the toilet... we were too stunned to do anything... we put on our head scarves and went after him... but he was no where near the toilet... we notified our guide who helped us looked for him... as we approach the viewing gallery there he was with his cleaning apparatus... WE CONFRONTED HIM!!!

he told us in Malay... "Saya minta maaf. saya tahu saya salah saya tak buat lagi... Tolong cik, saya cari makan." --- i apologize... i noe what i did was wrong i promised not to do it again. this is my rice bowl.

Of cos.. no way... i insisted he gave me his hp or any devices but he claimed that he had nothing... so we called the police... our guide was kind enough to accompany us all the way... the police only arrived 40 minutes later... sigh... we were questioned n asked to write a report... i think we repeated the story more than 4 times each bcos my head n i were separated... i insisted that the police checked his hp or any recording devices... when everything was cleared it was already 7 plus... the officers let us go... what happened to the cleaner... i dont noe... because there was no feedback given to us.. yet... maybe later.. sigh... what an experience...